_________my DAMN WorLD!!~:DDD

DEATH day tmr!

2011-11-16T18:12:00.001+08:00

Given the chance, i would... still do this all over again.

sometimes u over exert & give yr all... u nid a longer time to recharge.

i recharged a bit too long... and... ahahas...

now idk whether i'll promote or retain.

lol

Promos promos~

2011-10-17T23:37:00.001+08:00

promos results all out in one day.
heart crashed into some wall likedat- my life suddenly became the ceiling tat kept tumbling down.

2h2 failed - dissapointing. i knew i screwed up my econs alrdy but didn't expect to screwed it to the mac till i get a U . CHEM- i sux at organic chem,i know` so i started preparing since months... still on the day itself...it was jus CRAP.

TEARS and emotions flooded the campus todae. everybody jus dun feel gd.
me either.

but at the end of the day - after teachers and peers' encouragement, i strt to see a little light. noboday would care for yr promos results! at the end of the day, wad people look at is yr A lvl result. it is so true that i do not hav any reasons to rebutt this.

i hope i do get promoted but... jus let fate decide the best for me.

if i'm meant to stay for another day to brush up on my basics... i'll do so.

it fated - plus, i may be a gd thing in the long run.

it is better than getting through now, but the next yr encounter struggles all the way till A lvls. tat feeling is disastrous lo.

i do not wan tat. i still hav a dream. a BIG DREAM.

just wait for me:>

another month gone:)

2011-09-04T18:12:00.001+08:00

flu again... again...
august ended wif twists and samll little heartbreaks...

but it's alright:) i dont' care.

i gotta jus concentrate on my promos. other stuffs can wait.

i'm over pushing over. i've had enough of stupid guys who are seriously blind and had no idea who the heck they are dealing wif. lols. realy dumb.

nvm, guys will be guys.

i had e greatest grp of frens in sch. i had the best pal in the world who always managed to cheer me up, jus so sad that she wasn't in the same sch as me. otherwise... life would hav been much ... Happier and fun-ER:DDDD

SEPTEMBER- gOAL of the month is to mug hard... and play hard!!! i nid to study smart and not anyhow. its no point reading my notes all over again when the reading doesn't show in my results.

WORK HARD !!! for me, myself.
FIGHTING~!:>

freaking JULY and rainy AUGUST

2011-09-04T18:07:00.001+08:00

time so fast that i could no longer rmbr when was the last time i blogged.

during july, mye results shocked me. it was better than wad i thought but its a dissapointment to mom and the teachers.

failed gp and econs. it was kinda expected actually, not that i nv put effort in it- but it was more of a idk-how-to-work-this-subject-out kind of thinking.

ptm was a disaster. first time ever i've cried in front of my teacher - someone whom i would nv expect myself to break down in front of.embarrassing though, idk how to face him. i was all running away to facing the truth but ... not long after he inspired me.

he was an inspiration. i felt like really fight-on for my econs even though i hav no idea what would happen in the end.

i dun wanna retain, i wan to go on to j2 and see everyone, including my teachers. it's no joke @ all. i'm really scared... to not do well.

i'm weak in my physics- so i'm gonna brush it up as well.

i'm listening to the climb by miley cyrus- hoping to get a grip on me now:0

everything will be different from today, i will work hard - i mean smarter as well.

i dared to dream- i will fight on!! grrr~ fighting!!!~

DANGEROUS ..U

2011-09-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

a new meeting wif a complete stranger,

yet surprisingly warm feeling.

thot its gona e once in a lifetime fairytale, but... no.

a precautionary warning left me thinking...

u are dangerous.

at first i take it a take it down note, but now i take as a time ticking bomb.

getting too clse to u means risking my lfe.

i'm gonna so dumb to fall for such a TRAP;

i'm jus gonna take one step at a time:)

a smile doesn't mean i like u, a frown doesn't mean i hate u...

a greeting can be a slight warning as well.

hello... stranger:)

welcome to a new part of yr life.

june holidays:0

2011-06-22T10:12:00.005+08:00

june holiday was really a very thoughtful but strict holiday.

went bintan - experienced stuffs tat i've never done before; see things from a totally diff perspective--- seriously, the world could have been much better.much better.

and also during bintan trip, i heard some stuffs tat the reliability is doubted , but i still chose to believe cause there's no nid for explaination or excuses frm tat person. he wouldn't even bother, y even try waiting for him?

i rather choose to believe tat at least tat 1% of his words abt his mum is still the truth. at least this shows tat his heart is still pure somewhere.

pw was a pain in the neck. wtwt. haha, some grps had even more troubles so i shall not complain.

ppl wif no leadership qualities but still chose to be a leader-- gd luck to u man! not tat i despise u or wad, it's just tat u hold even more responsibilities. if u can't even manage yr job well, seriously-- jut take the blame on yrself. ponder over how u can do better for the bloody grp:)

a few more days before my h2 paper. gotta hang on and buck up for the veri last few moments!!!!!

dumb stuffs i did during june holidays was so... random.

wadeva. describing is very tiring, i dun wanna do tat.

last wk, i went bck to the old place.

nth changed.... just tat 'tat' person is no longer there.

FCK MY LIFE

2011-05-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

i'm tired.
i jus can't stop my tears from flowing todae- :((
bad news came from all over and just ruined my day.

AVRIL LAVIGNE:)) songs awesomeness

2011-04-22T16:13:00.001+08:00

LISTENING TO this song over and over again after WHAT E HELL:)

IDK IDK:(

2011-04-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

another moody day when the air just taste so bitter and salty.

irregardless of how sucky i know my day would be, i chose to be ME, STAY CHEERFUL:)

A SMILE IS not a smile anymore, without u.

A laugh is NO longer a laugh w/o u.

but, i'm still me w/o you.

we've drifted, we're lost- worlds apart. story of diff era, or shd i say a forced to be together fairytale?

cinderella shd nv end u wif sleeping beauty's prince:))

i hate myself for losing u, but u'll be happier w/o me in yr life. tat shd be the case.

onli then u'll find bliss.

that's y i'm gonna let u go.... soon:) gimme some time.

TOUCHED*

2011-04-16T19:38:00.002+08:00

my juniors are awesome. AWESOME!!

F-ING PROUD OF THEM:DDD

SLacking:((

2011-04-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't do this, i know. i'm slacking!!!! damn!~ gotta get bck to work... NOWW!!!~ ARGHH:(((

NEW day. another new life:DD

2011-04-12T00:04:00.002+08:00

who am i ? i'm jus an ordinary girl, who wants ordinary stuffs. i'm loving this life of mine, even though it's imperfect. so many twist and turns i've been in; seen so many faces of ppl,especially yours. i don't know who are u. pls tel me who u are. i wan to trust u.. forever. so pls... let me in:)

how long has this been...??

2011-03-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

tired.
tired.
tired.

i shd accept this- tat i'm scared of tests and quizzes:

i wan to get this over.
once and for all.
really.
who could hav understood?

no one.

tired ..tired and still tired:( :)

2011-02-15T22:56:00.006+08:00

cheering myself up wif "C.N BLUE- LOVE":) more hw, more hw more hw:( more lectures and more lectures. still getting used to life in pj even though my energy is like -totally drained?! lol haha jiayou jiayou- i'm atill hanging on:))))

Reflections:|

2011-01-30T22:50:00.001+08:00

I wonder if my time wif tat person would end soon. Answer is yes definitely. Greed would onli bring me nowhere,and onli back to square one:( i alrdy knew nothing is possible between us, yet my greedy heart asked for even more. If onli i could stop tis bloody feeling... I regret not meeting and knowing him earlier, cos the story wouldn't have been the same. If every girl's life story is written into a fairytale, my cinderella story would have ended up wif prince charming choosing to be wif a true princess instead of a commoner like me. The prince deserves a better, prettier and smarter girl. Let this be my last word, tat i trust thy love. Thou this is not forever... But at least i get the memories. Even though it is gonna be painful. If i could rewrite tis story of mine, i'll definitely wan to meet mr.prince charming... Jus tat tis time, i rather we be best frens.

Hello rainy day rain man

2011-01-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

Its raining man... 24/7 raining non-stop. Working through the weekend at westmall shop n save. So sian... Boss is stupid and assy. Tmr still have to go sch:( i nid more sleep... Seriously:) i haven had my beauty sleep and mask session for sooo long le. I miss my holidays.

LIFELESS yet another adventure.

2011-01-26T01:19:00.002+08:00

i say this is call THE BIG WAVE:)

awaiting for my results is just like waiting to be sentenced to death penalty.

nv wan to get into innova.

nv wan to.

it would be my nightmare to get into it.

destiny is pre-written.

like a storybk when the author isn't really you.

but no one said i can't write this story of my life,

and i will..now.

rewrite it in my own ways.

regardless how many big waves this story is goin to send to crush me.

i'll overcome them all.

whether by myself or wif others.

THIS IS MY LIFE, I'LL LIVE IT MY WAY.

omg.

2011-01-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

just another bad luck.

omg.

so real!~

i thot my working area is at choa chu kang park ther... but then!!!

it's at bloody yew tee!!!!

T0T

TOT

HOPE

2011-01-14T02:28:00.002+08:00

i came to the end of the tunnel on fri.

i thot i was stuck.
but i wasn't...

someone blew the end away and i have another new path to go.
thanks:))

I JUST WANNA DIE>.<"

2011-01-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

C'mon. its like tomorrow is 2012.

just tat everything is replaced by o-lvls results recipents crying & hugging & cheering, depending on how their results is.

i'm just trying to chill out, even though i'm goin nuts right now!!!

remembered how shocked i was for the eng paper...

and how fcking how i did for it.

it just makes me scared. and creeped out.damn

PSLE wasn't tat hard man...

i don't need anything right now...except a tranquilizer.

somebody save me!!!!:((((

i'm losign my bloody confidence. i don't feel like a human right nw

i can't breathe normally.

the air smells empty

heart's pounding so hard as if it's like a hammer nailing the nails.

i'm losing myself. now!!

BORING...& still boring

2011-01-03T23:30:00.001+08:00

yeah, great. wad else?

quit my job.
working onli till fri.

new rules at hm. great. stupid.

Jobbing-.-

2010-12-22T17:23:00.003+08:00

time fly so fast man~ can't keep up wif time alrdy. tsktsk

selling watches..
selling watcehs...
selling watches...
wad else??

still selling watches.

thursday goin back sch help bkshp auntie wif orientation selling.
lol, so tired.
yet i'm happy counting money~
omg, im crazy over money:)))

I'M MISSING YOU... and you~

2010-12-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

pasir ris frens, whether they are much older than me or even the same ages...
i miss you.

firstly, i miss you, joanna.
a crazy, funny girl whom lit up my 3 day job at pasir ris rdshow.
thanks for buying the stupid chrsitmas hat wif me, i loved it when we tried almost all the cosmetics plus hair stuffs in watson.
omg, the staff was staring~ hehe
THANKS for giggling with me even when we knew steven and boss is staring.
okay, we know we are slacking. but we just can't helped it!~
laughs*

im missing you a lot. can't wait to find u on fb but in any case, i can't find u and im getting desperate. omg~
i can't wait to talk to u abt yr men men don don* guy. lol
& meet up yo have fun.
u're a gd fren , a special one as well*:)

secondly, i miss you, steven.
a dracula like the one in twilight.
u 're like... 21*yrs old.
laughs~ wad a cheater. nearly believed u're tat young. but i know u're 27!!~
sry to impose trouble to you all the time, especially when comes to counting stocks.
i know i always get the wrong figures. lol
dreadfully sorry. sorry tat me and joanna are goofing ard like crazy kids as well as slackers, we know we are in the wrong. hahas
sorry tat we are so immature. haha
i know i did some rude stuffs~:((
reflecting:(( cos u are a senior, i just didn't get yr msg clear enough & just continued to joke ard.

thanks for showing me yr way of serving customer- the veri patient-yet-showed-signs-tat-u're-craving-for-them-to-buy look.
lol, i hoped i become a gd promoter like u. cos i thot i've nv seen u lose a customer yet!~ tats a legend.
hope u do marry soon enough!~uncle steven:D

i miss you, da jie*, gary, nicholas, and shuping,
ya`all are the best frens ther!! thank you shuping for making prata for me and joanna*.
smirk*
da jie and the others, thank you for guiding me through and helping me~ thanks a lot man.
i thot gary was a cold person like steven at the first presence..but he's much warmer than steven.
rmbred u seeing me with the peanut roll tat steven gave after a long time & u thot i was having my second one... lols.i'm not harold so... yah~ i'm still eating my first !!:))
thanks for gaving me the final smile tat immediately broke the cold ice between us. yr laughter make me and joanna laugh like crazy! so, thank you AS well~:)))

nicholas, thanks for helping me as well.thanks for goin to pula ubin on sat, gave me chance to make up chap 2 of twilight.
the one abt edward giving us hard-like-rock peanut-rolls & sending the warm and soft one to u by the air.( sry , but tat's a made upXD)

da jie, thanks for breaking the ice between me and everyone within the first day itself.
i thot steven was cold as ice and others were hard to tok to but in the end, it turned out extremely well.
thank you~ u are a veri warm and friendly person. love you~
p.s: i think i know your real name:)

if there's any chance, i really hoped to work wif ya`all again!~ missing you all dearly!!~:)))
hug*
lastly, repeating my old line: MERRY CHRISTMAS!~XDD
p.s: omg, joanna, i forgot to get yr hp no. from you!! how to contact u?!
i'm in a dilema.

HI, another new day:)

2010-12-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

8.34pm now,

just updated erhu blog by slashing juniors.

not tat i hate them or wad.

they nid to learn and not try and escape of wad they are afraid of.

they seriously nid some attitude check.

lol

i love my juniors, i don't care whether they are staying put in erhu or wad; they are my beloved juniors.

i just hope they don't ruined their own life like tat.

i could have gone harsher wif my words but i stopped.

i oso nid a attitude check as well.

haha

idk whether ltr goin grandma hse a nt..tsktsk

hope gods does help me wif these crazy sec 1s.

JOB SEARCHING-.- day 1

2010-12-02T00:12:00.002+08:00

tired tired tired

simple.

far east: most vacancy for 18 & above. tsktsk
still, me and hp met a veri nice lady.
she just wanted time wif her daughter.
but her hiring hrs is abit out of mine.
terribly sorry:(

tmr try promoter interview:)
gd luck then.

Another SAD story

2010-11-29T22:20:00.002+08:00

its not veri late now.

just caught a pic. a profile pic tat tells me everything.
about tat person. i don't even know him well.
all i know is he a kid, he's got a gd figure, he never kbows how to reject ppl's offer.
ppl treat him nicely, as though he's like royalty or wadeva.

but...
the profile pic depicts a girl wif him.
a girl i've guessed he realli like.
nv have i seen him smiled so brightly be4,
as though there's no more tmr
and this gal beside him is all tat he wants.
i shd have known and realized earlier.
didn't know why i didn't do tat, pathetic.

even though it hurts a bit,
at least its a truth tat i shd know for the better.
he shd realli get her, wif his 100%
cos the guy i know inside of him...
is capable of doin even more.
hahas.
gd luck, asshole*

-There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you.
David Burns, Intimate Connections

WOW. YOU're beautiFUl~!

2010-11-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

time: 6.03pm

yesterday went co concert. damn f-ing nice.
went lau pa sat wif frens. there were angmohs- drunk in any case. they were ..to my surprise, musicians! i guess they must be from texas.They played a lot of amazing songs and they danced like...OMG. crazy totally.ahahaha
the musicians at lau pa sat were GD!!~ AWESOME I SAY... its the 2nd tme i saw them. damn gd feeling to be there.

reached hm at 12-1pm. i managed to get to the last bus. phew! haha

-------plan for job search-----
USHER
FLOWER SHP ASSISTANT
CASHIER
WAITRESS
ADMIN<--last resort

after toking to hj

i'm thinking...

why does he thinks in this way?

why does he have to hurt someone he love this way?

ruining his own life ...as well as others.

turning his own life into shit, wad else does he wants??~

kenny...tsktsk.

i gotta admit, i was angry wif him.

after the concert, i glared at him in a not so friendly MODE.

lol, dk why i did tat,

i just don't understand why he didn't settle this relationship properly.

in the end, both parties would be hurt & tats ...pathetic.

to me, love is just a game.

with only the suitable players wif compatible personality,

then only will the game continue.

otherwise, it's as good as GAMEOVER.

Boring. wad else

2010-11-26T15:31:00.002+08:00

time: 4pm

wad am i doin? blogging, watching korean drama: YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
kinda funny.
the casts are all veri pretty~ heheh

tonight bro coming back, confirm ask snatch com wif me.tsktsk.

wad else? i'm goin to search for job. soon...
mom is so uptight and obstinate abt me working at cafe's. wth
i hated admin stuffs , tele communications stuffs.
wad else?
stalkers are irritating. hate them. hope they are gone for gd, since they dun even know they are wasting my precious time, they are useless ppl. to the society.

PISSEd. BOREDOM:((

2010-11-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

GREAT. i feel like a living zombie. i'm spending every night online and for the broadday light, i hidden under my blanket.

its goin to be 1am. wth.
just got cheated by my mum. how great was tat?? tsktsk...

stuck at hm, nothing to do. as if i didn't wan to get out. i wanted a job. to occupy my bloody boring days to come. mom had a lot of "no" statements.
just ignored.
cancelled my malaysia trip wif hkn co. damn. so sad:(

waist's still hurting, somemore it is strting to hurt even more. damn:(
just a single bloody movement can inflict knives-like pain on me. shit out my life man...

NIGHT OF MAGIC & DANCE

2010-11-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

00.56AM - 24/11/10

yesterday was a night of magnificent magic tat i could ever relate to e cinderella story.
for every gal out there, there must have been a time when u hope u felt like cinderella; for me, its prom night yesterday.

the ball took place at holiday inn atrium,
my fairygod mother was nisha's mom.
fairygod mother did some magic & poof!~ it was no limo*
but @ least cinderella & frens took a cab.

cinderella danced her night out( not wif the prince, but at least somewhat near him),lol
stepsisters were the bunch of 4/8 guys who acted like nice-o-assholes ,
trying to ruin the magic within.

cinderella hated it and ran away, just like the clock striked 12 ;
(as though e magic's gonna dissapear)
w/o dropping any glass slippers,
she seek refugee from frens from 4/6.
help came and phew! MAGIC CONTINUED.

when ball ended, step sisters grp pesters continued.
like duh~ any cinderella wanted to find her prince.
but u see, the irony came when the prince is busy taking
glamorous shots wif the other beauties.
cinderella ended up taking prince's right handman as a shield
( which was very bitchy thing to do)

magic ended when she got home and had to go back to ugly duckling state.

cinderella hoped the magic last forever
but some scenes made her hrt broken even though she knew she had no chance.
she wasn't any cinderella,
she was just an ugly duckling turning into a swan for a night.
she know the prince had the predestined princess to save...
which is definitely not her

CONFUSED & FRUSTRATED:(

2010-11-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

Time: 1.14am
Date: 19/11/10

hectic day though. went far east and bought a dress 2 accessories in 4 hrs and rushed hm. sis got a major exam coming on, thanks her for pei-ing me.
love her.even though i'm a thoughtless and selfish sister.ahaha

while typing this blog and browsing fb, suddenly came across some stuffs tat i shdn't have seen but becos of my our stupidity and curosity, i went to look at it.
even though my mind told me i gotta giv hm up, but sth just kept stopping me. damn it. i hate this feeling.
i realli hate it.

gotta straighten my thots. god damn it.

hope tmr will be a better day:)

tsktsk. I AM A FAILURE @ SHOPPING

2010-11-18T00:36:00.003+08:00

time: 00.36am
date: shd be 18/11/10

im a complete failure at shopping.
tsktsk... gotta admit.
prom preparation is so exhausting, just one day of goin out to shp is like...
hell to me.
haiy, confession no.1 : i hate buying clothes having to try them out.

...
i'll try my luck on fri then. hope i can jio hongping out to help me.
haiy...

LOL. Another Boring Sunday.

2010-11-15T00:29:00.002+08:00

TIME: 00.30AM
DATE: 15 nov
occasion: Andrea's birthday!!~>.<
Mood: CRAZY

recollection of wad things i did todae.woke up at 8am,went hongkah.
haha, shoot and guai lan hsien hean like HELL. he must hate me by nw, lolx.he zou*, me,meiyu, hongxiu and xingjuan sat on the floor while others on the chairs.
lol, lazy bumps like us truly...is lazy.lazy take chairs so...consequences for me is ...leg cramps throughout. lol. bad luck, almost all the song pieces oso dunno how to ply. wth. damn damn & damn.lol
gotta buck up~! heh

"dirty floors, dirty butts, dirty legs

& my dirty mouth."

woah~ haha, it rhymes- but if no link!hahaXDD

whole day spam anime,haha. damn nice nia~ haven enjoy myself for so long.

evening went westmall wif mum.harvey norman trip to buy washing machine.tok tok tok...non-stop.went to clothing shops to get inspiration for prom dress.bought dinner, get home.eat dinner, continue watching anime:DD

wad a life.

yeah, tmr goin shopping wif meiyu and hx. woots*

orchard, far east ...here i come~ hehe

hope i dun wake up to late tmr.

i guess tat being myself afterall is still the best

hongping cutie pie alrdy gave me a huge point earlier this yr, y didn't i come to realize till nw?

my texting style changed, my treatment changed and etc..

how could i've forgotten myself?

it took a lot of wrong turns be4 i realised y i felt like giving up even though i've just taken just one little step towards him. tats becos i wasn't myself, if it isn't me, i would hav to act as if im me. i got tired becos i wasn't myself. i was pretending to be someone i'm nt. wth. sounds bad.

but from now on, i'm gonna search for the old me. i miss being myself,i hate myself for pretending to be sb else, this would oni end me up wif losing the one tat i loved. haiy.

congratulation yatyan, u outgrown yr stupidity at last:)

FINALLY. O-LVLS is OVERRRRRrr.

2010-11-13T12:57:00.002+08:00

lol. finally its a PHEW!~ i thot i wouldn't have survive this crazy one month huge exam but i did!

some so big rock on my shoulders and head is off!!
even though o lvls is over, i couldn't feel a thing.

something is just... missing.
i guess kbox is wat i nid!
scream and sing my lungs out as if there's not gonna be tmr~
WOOTS* HOW I LOVE TAT.

yesterday went causeway wif hp and wanyi.
bad service in THE FACESHOP and MAC. omg, stupid attitude of the bloody auntie in mac.
the lady is the faceshp wasn't bad but.... she is getting on my nerves as she tries too hard to persuade me to buying a $9+ eye mask. BANG MY HEAD ON THE WALL.
shouldn't have gone in.

sad la, john little clsed down. tsktsk.
saw a $59.90 prom dress at metro. it was kinda nice but i prefer chiffon dress. lol

preparing for prom is so... tiring.
luckily, i onli got one to go.
after yesterday, i've decided to onli spend on:

-prom dress
-shoes
- accessories

NO MAKEUP FOR me. i'm lazy and wadeva, it would cost me a bomb to buy cosmetics.
i'm into makeup but nt gonna go wif the crowd this time.
im me and i dun like following others. the most i think i'll do is just buy foundation for skin. it would be easier.

-----------------------------i guess i'm giving 0 up---------------------------------------------
-----------------------------hope u become blissful--------------------------------------------
^0^/
im yatyan,
im back to real me:D

new skin

2010-08-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

this skin is okay.
wadeva.
it's changed.

idk the situation anymore

2010-07-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

did i pissed him off?
is he posting abt me pissing him?
i have no idea.
he maybe had no idea y i turned out so emo suddenly and strt to scold so insulting stuffs, but..haiy

idk the truth
idk the situation nw, we nv tok , no hi's, no nothings.
we passed each others like clear transparent mirror as if we nv saw each other.
i dun wan this, but i seriously hav no idea how to break this cold brink.
wtf
sux man.

i get pissed, when i see his smiles and laughters when he's wif others.
i dun see his smile when he's wif me,
i bet he realli dislike me a lot, maybe?
i dun nid to guess, i felt like im nth to him.
everything fell apart for the 18aug borned ppl. tsktsk
wad can i do?
the thing i needed most right nw is nth but COURAGE and HOPE.

LOVE YA- ss501

2010-07-31T16:46:00.001+08:00

This is ss501- LOVE YA:)
Damn nice, the lyrics sounds veri serious and dramatic. but i still think its nice:)

Lyrics | Ss501 lyrics - Love Ya lyrics

TIRED. OF PLAYING THIS GAME.

2010-07-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

song playing: SS501- LOVE YA

this song kinda describe wad im feeling nw.
confused yet certain.
heart-broken and determined.

i have no idea wad is he thinking.
i think i've freaked him out.
i think he disliked me.
i think im a slut.a bloody one.

my mind is in a whirl and i got no idea wad to do
i wanted to grab hold of him and nv let go.
but...
failed.
i failed seriously.
a complete failure.

can't concentrate.
all the time im in sch he's in my mind.
i clsed my eyes and he's still ther.
i wan to wiped him out.
but... still
failed.

MAYBE he hav sb else.
sb he loved.
then im just a stupid and foolish & willing party.
if hadn't been tat KNOWING. i wouldn't even believe in wad predestined is.
everything is a mistake.
shouldn't even have met him, know him, tok to him in the first place.
im TIRED.
very tired.
i wan to rest but the moment i clse my eyes again,
i think of him and i could not stop my tears from flowing endlessly.

i nid to concentrate on my studies now.
seriously.
tats my future.
i nid to save my own life, save my family from crisis.
sth nid to sacrifised. tat would be...
maybe my happiness?

im ... confused.

im waiting!!!

2010-07-24T19:28:00.003+08:00

hi ppl out there.
mayeb u are outside shpping right nw, maybe u r busy mugging*, u may also be sitting in frnt of yr com blogging or surfing the net just like me. wadeva it is. today didn't rain and im veri VERI sad. wth

i wan rain todae!!!!
damn, dun ask me y? idk too. i nid so rain to make my hse more cosy.lol

1 whole week of prelims is like...FCK.
serious.
okay, scold me for onli revising at the last min or wadeva, i know i sux.
but! i whole wk of prelim , everyday. is veri tiring. i nearly can't breathe. its like asthma. lol

i always said this at the exam hall:
" WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE!!!"
-kk, tats not true. but i dun think i get great or flying coloured marks. i'll definitely see red everywhere. lol

nvm, im left wif 2 more papers.
AMATHS and Physics.
both paper2. i think the sch just wants us to REST IN PEACE. LOL
paper 2 is KILLER paper to me and god knows- maybe i survive / maybe i don't?!!

just pray, ppl... let's just pray and stop whining. its destiny if we are going to die next wk.
just think to the bright side la.
TUESDAY IS THE LAST PAPER!! then im goin to the movies. c'mon , how great is tat??
well, yea. quite.
lol

BE OPTIMISTIC!!! SMILE YATYAN, SMILE AS BRIGHT AS U CAN'T.( then when the papers come back, u wun noe how to smile anymore)
hehes.

kk, i think i gotta plan.
PLAN AFTER PRELIMS:
1) continue to revise. every wk
2) go bck co once in a while( or once in a bue moon)
3) hang out wif frens more?
4) save $$

Tats all, the plan must be edited. lol.
i'll fail my o-lvl in this case. hehes
i still wanna go jc so... I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP!!!

wtf. dream tat gave me creeps

2010-07-10T15:58:00.002+08:00

im quite freaked out by my dream i had two days before.
story line was absurd but it just scares me out.

a girl who shares the same personality as me managed to get the guy i was intending in jio-ing.tat girl is someone i looked up to and admired always. i had no ways to even fight her.
everything felt like a failure and i want to cry.damn.
problem in the dream was tat everyone was so cold, esp the guy. the expression tat he gave me cold shoulders is was im afraid of.
im afraid of losing him; i noe i might just lose him right nw.
i dun wanna lose him. i want to grab hold of him and never let go, but i dunno what he think abt me. no point jio-ing him if he dun even like me. worse still if he hates me.

saddened.

hello. dead blog

2010-07-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

hi and hello to my dead blog.

lols

im just bored.

nth to do. sian la

sch reopens and everyday is tiring. sad nia, i think its getting stressful.

no mood to really joke, i dun think i'll have the stamina to do so soon. lols

maybe i look as if i'm unconcerned abt u but paiseh la, but its actually nt the case. lols

im just a bit tired, if u smile at me. i may just returned it.heheXD

IM WAITING for.. SWENSENS!~

2010-06-04T09:52:00.002+08:00

HI,
im... at sch's com lab.
done my el stuff.
surfing the net nw.
jus finished blogging on erhu's blog.

these kids is ... naughty.
nv, i believe they will learn to understand.
hehe

im waiting for the session to end.
im waiting to see u,
im waiting for the next lesson to strt.
im waiting for the day to end.
i waiting for swensens.
yeah~

SLEEPY HEAD

2010-06-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

listening : <<>> - "when i look at you" - miley cyrus
mood of mine: Happy and a bit annoyed0.0

hi ppl out there. well, here i am again, blogging my daily boring life.
well, first thing first. 1st day of June holiday and i feel - tired and sleepy. shyt rite?
haha.
can't believe i was staring at mr kumar wif my sleepy eyes and i knew he got my msg.shyt.
bad expression. c'mon ,yatyan. wake up u asshole! gotta slp earlier tonight.

second, i think im seriously AM rude. he tok to me, he said gdbye to me and i jus totally, didn't HEAR IT. I thot he was toking to someone else. lol, shyt me.
recalling, it is stupid and slow of me.>.<"

last thing, slpt on my sis bed this afternoon to hav a nap. in the end, i woke up 15 mins be4 my alarm.
actually, i wasn't woke up. i was frightened up and broke out cold sweats. haha.
my nightmare--> i tricked the female dog frm "the royal tramp" and she was chased out frm the hse by her owner( which was the owner of the 101 dial-mations?!)
she strted chasing me and trying to kill me?! damn. wad a dream tat was. haha

tats all. gimme a gd slp tonight. haha

I wan u to know how u feel abt me.

2010-05-30T21:34:00.004+08:00

if the sky isn't blue,
if the sun isn't yellow,
if the world is without light,
if i wasn't born the same year as u,
if i wasn't in this sch,
i wouldn't know how i'd known u.

thank you for letting me know u, i'm grateful for that.

i know wad i did was a wrong thing; since i couldn't twist back time, i might as well deal wif everything now. Get things back into the right order and i'll get back a REAL life.

knowing u has been great, knowing u this far is my bliss. THANK YOU.
i'll never do this again, cos i now i'm jus being a dumb ass by doing this. Getting u out for no specific reason and jus wanting to know yr thoughts abt me.
u wouldn't know this all. i know u wouldn't be reading this post, i jus wanna redemn myself for doing such unforgivable thing.
sry.
sry.
terribly sry, i jus wasn't thinking right. i was out of my mind.

Did another wrong thing again.

2010-05-29T16:38:00.002+08:00

damn. i did another wrong choice again.
i SHOULDN'T have ask tat bloody question
fck.
fck.
fck.

pressurising and i hate myself.
its my part of wishful thinking and fck.
seriously.
when with you, my mind is always in a blank and i don't nid to think of anything.
when with you, im stress free.
sry but im gonna wipe u out, if wad im thinking is absolutely true.

TEAR(S)

2010-05-27T20:39:00.002+08:00

B.A.S.T.A.R.D

sry i have to use this word to describe u. cos i realli am pissed.
pls reflect wad fucking thing u have done.
u r selfish and i hate it.
y do i, have to accomodate u?!
ppl say u are sad, do i have to sympathise u?
ppl say u r angry, do i have to comfort and give u a pat on the shoulder?
ANS:no.

u were given chances, u blew yr own chances.
dont tel me i have to gib u another one. no.
u dont force me to do wad i dont like. im not yr puppet.
if u know me well enough, u'll know wad's my answers.
but seems like u don't. yeah, blame me. ppl blame me for being selfish and cruel. wadeva, i torelate enough, tats y i cried. cos no fucking one is realli 100% on my bloody side. im not crying jus to say like: " can sb side me for god sake?!" no! everyone is persuading - hard! for ur stupid sake!~

knowing u is a disaster. if u realli like me, let me go. otherwise, we r not even frens.
i realli wanted to commit to someone else right now and u give me this shyt.
thanks:(

HEAVY INSIDE.

2010-05-23T13:20:00.001+08:00

it's been raining for days. seriously, if it is realli acidic rain, i bet i would have gotten skin cancer by now.

these few days is like... damn it. tiring. i wish i could lie on my bed and never wake up to do mock paper.
haha...ha..ha...ha...ha

this is ass-y.
doing homework feels sick to me. damn.
next wk we shd be getting back the rest of our papers.bless me, NO. NOT BLESS. shd be " GIVE ME THE MARKS"!!!

lols.watching my chinese drama right now, sian la. ltr goin out,seriously, i wan to sleep.
gib me a pillow i'll slp for u to see.
hehe.

kk byebye.
my head's heavy.lol

haha, YEA!~ BYEBYE EXAMS ..FOR NOW.

2010-05-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

watching chinese drama serial now.

saw a bitch in tis ep. damn it, veri angry. so evil, mean and bitchy!

she looked like a fairy but inside, her heart is so black man. damn damn damn. jus to get rid of girls by her admirer side, she kill one and hurt herself for a show!!! she pushed all the blame to my chio bu!! arghh!!! she is such a mean GIRL!!!

nw my chio bu is left wandering in a dangerous forest alone. sob sob*

my pitiful chio bu*...tsk tsk:(

haha, this whole wk slacking
today went hkn, haha, onli some ppl come. damn few.
me and meiyu kept joking and suan-ing the erhu cher till haha... he damn pitiful.
i kept suaning him OLD. he mus be emo-ing nw. haahs
we even joked to cher about treating us to WAFFLE. he realli TREAT LEIS!!
but!! hahs, me and meiyu veri guai children, nv take up his offer. ahahs,otherwise, we are damn damn damn bad ppl.

hahas.
me gotta kambate liao.
got 2 tests this wk . tmr jyjy!!

F-ing* sad

2010-05-11T15:30:00.002+08:00

Time: 3.30pm
Venue: my house, study rm.
music playing: SILENCE-.-

today is a normal day cos it is neither gd nor bad.
if my heart stopped functioning, i'll noe y. cos it couldnt hang on.
chem paper1: sux like hell.
how's a 11/20? bloody hell life has never been so sucky.

gd thing is , i got an extremely well marks for my HMT. it should be listed under " YATYAN'S MIRACLES". Normally, i jus wait for my passing marks, todae i got a shock out of my life by scoring a distinction. people ard me is like: wow, and amazed and maybe jealous?
well, sad to say. i'm sad.
sad, not becos im not the best,hey, i noe my limits.
but its becos of my emaths paper. section 1.

i knew sth would go wrong and i was definitely correct. my instinct had never been so accurate before. wth.
everyone was like scoring 20+, 30+ in fact. i was actually scoring a f-ing score of 19/40. wow, wad a gd LIFE IM having.
Not tat i didnt study. i screwed this paper up since i strted panicking frm the strt of the paper.
i was in fact not myself the whole paper. stupid and f-ing* me.

i hate this feeling of failing. i know i have to work even harder. esp for my a maths. i mus score a distintion for tat!!
no point typing and scolding myself for this.im a complete failure, IF i continue to grumble and not do anything.
i would be a SURVIVOR , IF i end this blog wif a sweet ending and later, mug for my physics today then my amaths tmr.
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"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "

~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

" I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday. "

"The only failure which lacks dignity is the failure to try."

~ Malcolm F. MacNeil

THANK YOU. i love myself! XD

Hello, Study- SMART people like ME. bleah! ahhas

2010-04-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

im actually... giving up typing my essay at point 3. omg. i have 3 more points and a conclusion to go. shyt it.
nvm. i came across sherrill blog and then this blogshop. its kinda cool and cute. kinda cheap too. the stuffs ther too: http://www.fairytaleslovestory.com/

shd realli look at it.

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afterall, mr jon lee is mr. nice la hor.
aiya, wait. dun nid beg him la. i bet a lot lot of ppl nv finish too. tsk tsk
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SUX. 7 mrks fly away liao.
keep my fingers crossed. bless me.
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wed- hmt. gimme a B3!!!!!
thurs- SPA. DIE DIE DIE!!!!! SHYT MY LIFE.

I BETTER strt to pray ...HARD.

I REALLI realli LOVE MY JUNIORS!~

2010-04-21T21:03:00.004+08:00

NOW plAYING: [FENG NIAN JI + MICHAEL JACKSON - beat it]

hi juniors and readers.
first thing first: JE TAI'ME!!
i love love LOVE ALL OF YA`!!!
i didnt know stepping down was fun. hehes. the album was cool thkx, even though i have no idea who the hell printed BLURRED pics. hahas, nvm. i wun mind cos its ya` all de xin yi*
i appreciate tat.

ya` all mus continue to work hard.SENIOR i slacker, now then know why to work damn hard. now i qionging and mugging as much as i can. HOPE you all understand the importance of yr studies, dun slack too much and end up struggling.( i'm NT struggling FYI)

THKS FOR THOSE crazy msgs in the album. SERIOUSLY, get a GOLD.THEN cry and wailed as if the whole world is blind and deaf.I'll definitely apply as a student helper. i hope next next yr de SYF , i can come back and go SYF WIF ya` all to cheer you all on.

BTW, i didnt know my juniors stalk better than i do! SHYT MAN. HAHAHS. EVEN MY FB PIC was taken. ass u ppl. i gotta buck up on my stalking.

last thing: if ya all got any problems, be it personal or what. can come look for me or even text me. u wan spam me? KAN!!! lolx
i'll be most willing to share yr troubles and worries. im a good chatbox. haha

Finally: REPLIES OF ALBUM MSG--> ( look for yr name):

1) YAN NI: thks a lot, girl. jiayou and hope u find yr passion for erhu soon.

2) SHU FEI: i will cum bck see u de, fred nt. even if im in south africa i'll fly bck see u de larhs:)

3) Simin, yu ling, kelly, ru tong, carmela : thks ya all. idk if im gonna get good grades but i'll do my best. cannot 'hope' lei. mus gib me ' support'!!hehe ; i didn't im a GD senior or sl but i noe i ROCK!! HAHAHA, YOU ALL ROCK TOO.MUACK MUACK*

4) Chelsie: u nt hopeless la, my dear. jiayous!! i'll try find time cum back help u, yixiu and others DERHS!!!!XD

5)Jiayi: i nv bully u LOR!! reflect la, ltr nobody wants to jio u... hehehe jk-ing

6) Hui luan: u too!!! help us (co, erhu too) get a GOLD. jiayou jiayous!! PERSEVERE!!!

7)Yi xiu:u and chelsie mus jiayous worhs. i'll be behind u too.

8) Jui teng: same to u, jiayous in yr studies, work HARD!!! hehe, u can oso become a gd senior too!!XD

9) Richmond: eh, michael busy arh, how to teach u moon walk?! u wan learn moon walk find samuel chin. he knows. OTHERWISE, TEACH U LA. go lot de LASER FAIR, the floor there got a poster wif the moon walk steps. Go ther learn la. hahahas, learn liao this year de co night u dance la. i confirm go see sia!! ahahas

10) xiao jing, xiao qi, pei xuan: i'll miss you derhs~ muacks* u 3 say GOLD DE arhs~ GET A GOLD AND LEMME SEEEEEEEEeeee!!!! hehes! waiting ...waiting!~ hehe

11)meiyu: u sucker!! ahahas, hkn till 16 may then resume, wait for me till 16 may la~ hahas. I'LL DEFINITELY miss u bitch de. hahas. btw, lee lao shi say our hkn oversea trip is 18 dec/nov
then sch co de oversea trip is maybe 22nov/dec ..otherwise might push to 29th. HAHAH, he scared ltr we too GAN*.LOL , i wan slp 8 STAR hotel!!!!!!!!!! ROAR*~~

12) LIbin: EH! LAO TI KO~ DUN bian tai my juniors arh, otherwise i run co BITE U!! HEHE, thks FOR SAYING im a gd sl. yr words is assuring though contradicting. hahaha thks a lot for the wonderful memories too. FASTER CUM JOIN HKN LA, LTK!!!

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ENGLISH oral. nah~

2010-04-19T15:15:00.003+08:00

Now playing: i hear nth except sounds coming from wei hong pc, damn.

i actually using the com in the oral rm. lol, mr ronald wong didn't come. wow, unexpected.
prema asked me and leeleng to turn to mr narain. at first i think it was the worst day of my life. omg! BUT! MR NARAIN said i wasn't under him.... wadeva. i jus ended up under MDM asrina.is it a good luck? i dunno. junhong said tat she was rumored to gib the lowest marks of all the exmaining teachers.wow, jus pray hard this rumour is't true. KEEP my fingers CROSSED.

weihong and the guys are watching MICHAEL JORDAN AND KOBE BRIAN STUFFS. so much for NBA. i guessed i'm so nt into it. XD
weihong kept suan-ing me about zunyuan which was... DUMB. kk, the guys in our class had aways been dumb and it isn't that amusing or amazing anymore. NAH.
the worst is tat i can't believe that i'm actually writing this behind their back. wow, evil me.
nvm, i'm really bored anyway.
i didn't bring my calculator today, so unable to do my maths anyway. Nothing to do, hence, i've decided to blog.
FACEBOOK is somehow unaccessible. what the. GREAT.( IRONY)
....

...
...

ok! FACEBOOK IS ACCESSIBLE!!woots*
( 3 more people be4 me)
kk, i concentrate on fb-ing barhs.
ja ja`

OH god damn it. IT'S HOT!

2010-04-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

First thing first, its HOT.it's realli hot.
admit it, its f-ing hot.
im like sitting at the back row of the class where the onli gas im sucking in is CO2. GOD DAMN IT.
i bought a fan todae, good grace.
it doesnt blow realli nice. i think i wasted my money. shyt.
kk, wadeva. im through.

gotta save more money again. a lot of birthday in april. shyt. i see the future of my empty wallet. damn.

i gotta revise more and mug more. im slacking again. damn.
o-lvls cuming le, i gotta wake up. damn.
2 more sessions be4 i step down, omg. damn again.

p.s: i haven done mr. lau and ms lim wrk. shyt.

LOST!!~

2010-04-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

NOW playing in my head:" who knew" - pink

( chg to this song cos its less sadistic then sober)-haha

watched "camp rock" . damn nice!! 10 fingers and 10 toes up!!
shyt, i think i ltr obessed over jonas brother.
lost game ( DAIDI) when playing wif my cosuins(younger). shyt and fcK. i think we played for like 10 rounds--- i won... 2. fck. im a loser. haiy, tsk tsk.
conclusion: i'll nv be a professional gambler for the whole of my life.

haha, got stuck wif a maths qns. sms samuel chin pork&lard. wth. i think we got serious communication problem. tsk. wth. FASTER ONLINE HELP ME U LARD!! >.<"--->-.-

don't tel me u slpt!! otherwise im gonna screw uuuuuu!!! arghhh!

tmr goin hkn co, better slp nw. fck, pork&lard still nt replying. asshole. tmr mus prepared fingers to numb-ed like hell. feng yong. jyjy barhs ,yatyan can do it derhs.

u are BLESSED!!~XDHOHOHHOHHOHOHOHOHO

haha, SHYT HEAD XD

2010-04-04T21:23:00.002+08:00

lol, todae's a boring day.
BORING
sis and bro both not at hm. BORING.

OH MY GOD!! APRIL 5TH!!

2010-04-03T19:44:00.003+08:00

For todae is my HAHA day.im gonna be HAHA too.
went hp's tutorial point. LAUGHS*.

went buy chicken satay @ westmall. yummy!~:D
fb-ing now, hahas. so many people has so much to say - jus over my HAHA haircut.lols
search some quotes to make life better. not for consolation, but to make sure i go forward and nv look back again.its over.OVER.

nice nice quotes:
->We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails. ~Author Unknown

->A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes. ~Hugh Downs

->Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out. ~Art Linkletter

->I don't need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod; my shadow does that much better.

->I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.

->It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter

->Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts.

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2nd thing. im SHOCKED , terribly shocked!
i cant believe.... my bro birthday falls on the same day as PORK AND LARD!! omg.
shyt, i haven bought present for my bro, die .-.-
nvm, i draw a shuai ge for him he happy liao.hehe
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i think my haircut is realli haha.
xu xuan mummi realli haha too. fun sia. played daidi ther.lol!!!
i still lose to xu xuan.-_-"
i think hp and my haircut looks identical. hehe. omg!! lolXD
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BLEAH XD , IM CAREFREE!~weee~

2010-04-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

i jus love limin's song: NOCTURNE( SECRET GARDEN)
DAMN DAMN nice.hahas

enjoy:D

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haha, a lot of tests for the whole wk, bleah'.
mugging still. heheXD
no time to think of other stuffs when i cant figure out wad others are thinking anyway. i shoot u, u shoot me. i wanted u to accept as ME, u still rejected me, bleah'.
wow, u realli do hate me, don't u?
conclusion: u win, happy?
jus get on wif yr life while i get on wif mine. im happy likedat cos we got communication problems, no point stabbing me here when we are broken. BROKEN- yes, u and me. no others.
im tired wif u. bleah'. pls continue to insult me, if u would. u r always welcome.

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got 7 assignments this wk. need revise for SPA too. gotta jyjy!
to andrea: HAHA, I GOT TUESDAY!!! wif hongping!~ hehe.dun sadXP.

I guess life may hab failure sometimes and i think mine isnt bad. i got freedom at least. i love being me:D
I GUESS being a poor person isnt bad! bread and fillings is ME afterall!
bread is me, fillings can be : eggs, bacon, ham, cheese, nutella, skippy peanut butter, strawberry jam...etc
FILLINGS is my daily life!
full of surprises!!! yea!i thot i was pang-sei-ing hongping these few days ... it turned out... BOTH OF US WERE thinking of the same thing. haha, gimme 5. nw, i got weekly tuesday afternoon wif hp!clap clap!

to hp: do yr work, dun slack! otherwise i tell andrea smack yr bottom!!>.<"
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NOW PLAYING: <<>> - Pink

DAIDI !!~ IM obsessed! shyt

2010-03-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

oh, oh, daidi!!! i guess this march holiday is meant for me to realise how addicted im to daidi.lol

im such a bloody addict.poor wei ting xiao mei* and bian tai cecilia*. u both becum wet chicken!lol, shouldnt hab ask u 2 help me buy lunch, paiseh!~1000x sry

btw, i still gotta say sth, to sb.

" if u think me as this way, let it be. i admit my mistakes after hearing it. but ..jus blame tat im obstinate and sucky, i wun chg. the whole clinque is tired , i guess. u said i gotta realise wad's wrong wif me. yesh, tats definitely true. to u all, u all may see it tat i take u all for granted and i do stuffs tat make so like a indirect bribery.yesh, on the surface it may seemed like, i can understand tat feeling. u all still may say i dun understand, hence this is jus up to u all to decide whether u trust my words.

another thing u all may say, then y wun i chg? yea, i've to admit. im a imperfect fren who may move on wif new things, new people without putting into other's shoes be4 i act. but.. Tats ME. im Pang Yat Yan. not Ms. The-Flexible-Fren.

u all are nt 'her' too. tats y i nv spoke a word abt it when comes to all of yr little imperfectiness, cos i noe when pointing others finger's, u will have to make sure the finger's wun be pointed back at u. tats my point.

u all may think i am selfish' well, im not.

i dont have veri high EQ, so i wun be able to manage emotional stuffs well. tats my weakness in life. i dunno wad u all r feeling unless someone tels me. i cant feel ANYTHING; i cant hav any emotions if u all dun tel or remind me.im nt trying to shift blame on my EQ?! or anything, but well, im dead serious here, i jus want to explain.

i feel 'SAD' when i think of our problems. u all were perfectly normal people who were great at thinking, being straightforward is your all's winning point in life. its good to speak straight to the point but it hurts me the most when u all spoke nth at all then suddenly act 'abnormally' abruptly.

U all hav the talents to 'FEEL' normally. well, i DONT even hab tat chance to do so.

it isnt as serious like as if i got a terminal illness or sth. but i mus be frank here, its a misshap not to hav tat 'feeling' thing u all had, so treasure it well. reallY:)

btw, she's not arrogant or sth. jus for this time, realli. can u all please put yrself in her shoe? i know y u all dislike it when she gets on wif her OBML frens too much. i jus felt it.. im jealous and i jus dun like her bringing all her attention to 'them'. but at least i tried and i'tried to get along and clse wif those frens. i swear, seriously. they are good people who had their own troubles too. jus like us.

lastly, if we're frens, pls spare a thot . not for me but at least for her. she did nth wrong at all.

if we're frens, pls dun keep quiet for a min and the next second u erupt.

cos we're frens, i dun speak bad abt u at all. i swear it all over and still, i say i'd never spoke bad abt u ever. dun tel me to find my so-called frens. they are my frens also. u all r clser frens, jus tat we got sepearated by class and had lesser time to hit off as before. do not blame each other for wad each of us lack of.

if we're REAL frens, this would not had happened.

The World is TRULY insane. hahas

2010-03-14T13:47:00.002+08:00

Question of the day: How MANY lies hav u told throughout yr Life?

mY ANS:UNCOUNTABLE!~

hi, people. im here again. to crap.

realising people is ugly doesnt help; telling others they are wrong isnt the i shd be doin; scolding myself im a byotch isnt the case too. There are a lot of problems tat cant be solved easily, esp THIS problem.

confessions (1): im still evil, even if i try cleanse myself. if its a bad blood, it will still be.

so, no point pointing fingers at others when im dirty myself.

confession (2): when its a one -sided story, nobody in the story is able to judge who's right.

thats why, im cannot say anything at all.

confession (3): If others still they are right, jus let them. cos, they may be right sometimes.

conclusion : if u noe the problem, say it out LOUD. if not, dun say lies and pretend to be someone u are nt. hence, im nt gonna pretend to be ms innocent either. cause, i noe im evil and ugly inside too. no point saying others as if im ms goody good. blah.

jus settle this once and for all. i jus the middle person who know one-sided story. i do not intend to point fingers but let this be known. i still love u all and i will still. if u hate me, kill me straight .

UGLY TRUTH- everyone's ugly like shyt.

2010-03-13T17:46:00.002+08:00

Just admit it. u are ugly, so am i.
once i type this out, im nt afraid of provoking anyone.

since u said u rather be harsh, im waiting for u to act. be straightforward. stop running away to the problem as if u are the victim. u AREN'T.hear this, u are nt the onli one victimized. long time a ago, u all still undertood. now, everything is FAKE.

I AM UGLY. cos i type this out like a byotch.
but i wanna let ya all noe this:

if we are still one , face it. if u didnt like us or me alone; then still face it.
dun even try drag others who arent even in the pic in. im nt afraid of losing anything. if u hate us being together, blow it. im jus waiting for yr reaction.
WAITING patiently.

say my blog's dead- IT IS!!~

2010-02-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

MY blog is going to be dead, soon! omg
wadeva it is, im here to crap so lemme crap.lol!

yesterday was 27th.
did a maths wksht but still couldnt solve some questions -- too CHALLENGING le.
then wore pink dress wif skinny to hongping hse.
haha- hp quarrelled wif andrea over CLOTHES. WT..lol
two little idiots. me n sherrill used the hair dryer n made sure the noise was covered:X..haha

wadeva it is, everything drag till 7pm + , then we went siqi hse.
the strting was- dumb n boring. nth to do in fact- jus eating can occupy the time.lols
then truth or dare... no comment:x

played monopoly- i sux.
dealing wif money.kept landing into hongping's property.arghh!! SHYT SHYT SHYT~
end up everyone bought hses, i didnt have even 1!! sob sob...
CONCLUSION: i lost the game. luckily this isnt reality. i would definitely be a beggar then.lol.hahas

drank the bloody orange beer. it wasnt veri nice but at least it tasted like a drink. lol!
watch TITANIC while plying monopoly.there were HIGH tides and LOW tides, like when jack was drawing nude pic of rose, the other gals n guys went: WOOOOOAhhhhh!~
wth~

funny: siqi played yaoyao's mv(s).
wtf , seriously. but DAMN funny. there were lots AND LOTS of comments here and there. i jus laughed and laughedXD
comment: siqi is horny...REAL HORNY.
ppl playing mahjong was like losing concentration becos of the sick comments and mv(s), esp leslie. haha, i guess eugene is winning a lot.hahaha

got out of siqi's hse at abt near 11pm.
got lost in his condo's carpark.fck.
met a kitten and her mum. veri cute la, seriously pity them a lot.
gave them my one and onli ribena but they ignored it.tsktsk. feel like telling siqi to throw food down but how?
tsk tsk...i stroke the mummi cat then walk away.
followed an uncle riding a bike and i found the front gate!! yesh!!!
took 184 the 963. lol

HOME SWEET HOME.

watch tv till 1am then sleep.

-------------------------------28th feb: todae couldnt wake up---------------------------------
tsktsk.
shd hab slept earlier.
haha.
conclusion: i still wan go siqi hse play! next time learn mahjong frm cecilia.buhahahahas

16th - ass man

2010-02-16T22:17:00.002+08:00

trying out new blogskin...
screwed up everything -
hw nt done. fck

got screwed by mum cos of this - fck.
haven complete my roses- fck.

fcking day. thanks for reading todae's " fck's blog".
...
...
do stay tune.fck.

CNY and Valentine DAY celebrat_n!~

2010-02-13T16:46:00.003+08:00

morning, sufang n sherill gave me their pudding. lol, thanks!
...
...
gave felicia and weiting roses.
yi ling gave me sweets.. yea!
...
co stuff, prepare and perform
somehow im nt nervous but still screwed up at one place, ha.
the song was so damn fast. i think others damn nervous barhs. i saw stiffy hands ard.
lolXD

went back own class, got cecilia's present, thanks~
wei ting xiao mei's had some problem, never la! its the thoughts tat counts la~

gave out few roses.
...
...
...

SPA was a bit of shit. nv burn everything completely. mdm rosnah facial expression wasnt gd. oops!

hmt test: kill me~! >.<
e-maths test: shyt shyt shyt shyt...all crap written.

worst thing: spilled milk tea on uniform, i spilled it on MYSELF, WHAT fck.
lol, lol..lol...lol...wad luck.

went watching "valentine day" with sherrill, leeleng and wanyi.
damn FUNNY... a lot of sex stuffs - adult contents. but afterall, its realli funny!
and romantic too. the twist in the story is oso cool. i recommend this movie!!
met hongping and andrea at sweet talk. passed me my dress.STUNNED*
OKOK...i think i can accept la. i wear on 27th, if im goin kay? lol

tats all ppl.
im gonna make roses for a LOT of ppl. jus wait!

BLOODy hw(s)... CNY'S next wk~

2010-02-08T16:14:00.003+08:00

mood: calm, unreactive
music: JUST DANCE - lady gaga

fck. i thot my life will be ending, i jus realised ther physics test this morning. this is stupid. S-T-U-P-I-D.
I was still happily shopping for clothes wif my mum, aunt and sis yesterday afternoon till night.
onli bought one skinny frm levi's, one white booty-kind shoe(damn shiny- nt blink*) and some materials frm DAISO. haha. im intending to make paper roses for my frens.

another thing, tmr ther's hmt vocab test, kumar's a maths test.
fck.

fck.

stab myself man.

schedule- damn packed.
i nid an oxygen tank sia. i seriously nid more practice wif my erhu. fri got performance. i wan co to do best~ nt gd. gd is nt enough nw.

erhu's blog is dead. DEAD. meiyu nv update . i oso nv. sian la. too bad. everyone's busy. no time la.

erhu's attitude- sux.

last fri was the fck-iest day of 2010. nt the stupid arrangement during rehearsal. is erhu's bloody attitude. if u all cant shut the fck up; one day i'll help u all do so.

jus watch iT:P

I SUX AS A SL. i seriously do. strip my post now!!!
fck. fck.fck.

kk, i shdnt be saying fck. i wun do tat after this bloody and f-ing* post.
ja!

( everyone's still trying to locate instructors*)tsk tsk.

lol, MUGGING DAY!~

2010-01-31T21:19:00.003+08:00

hello pals,
todae is MUGGING DAY!!~
actually is nt DAY, shd be WKEND!~

managed to complete most of the work. chemistry is realli dk how to do, nvm. tmr go sch ask irfanXD

im STILl missing camp, i wan sing SARANG HAEYO wif grp 13 --to instructor matthew !
i think we grp 13 rock like hell can, haha.
im listening to bad romance everyday.

i guess i chg a bit after camp. i damn motivated , keep doing hw and hand up on time( nt every piece of hw)

lol
sudddenly i felt like going jc, dk y.
maybe becos i dk wad i realli wan to do in the future.
if im uncertain, i cant jus gamble rite?! lol

i suddenly feel as if im a study -smart person, woots*
yea!~
KK, I go mug again.

p.s: 4/8, JIAYOU! LETS ALL DO WELL TOGETHER!~YEA~

camp ROX! 25/01 -27/01

2010-01-30T13:35:00.002+08:00

mood: damn hype~

IM MISSING CAMP!!~

i miss bottle tree park!

even though 3 days passed, i still cant forget everything man.

this is the best camp ever, impacted us mentally and physically.

good news: I GROW MUSCLE! YEAH!~

badnews: im missing shamie and matthew... sob sob*

ask me abt all the camp details and everything we gone through. i tell ya, its gonna take 3 days 3 nights to finish my story. ahaha

WAD I MISS: instructors, esp matthew and shamie.THEY ROX

-> the food ther, even though it cant be compared wif mac..lol

->the activities we gone through as a grp , a class

i remember the tiring walk to cityhall. totally crazy.

damn tiring. but fun , cos we chatted kinda a lot on the mrt and we sang all the way! haaha

JU JUN BIAO* SQUEEZE!!!

i love : BAD ROMANCE. THE camp fire item tat we rushed out - mixing wif shi shua shua*

i love shamie!~ she can shake and move man!!~

lol!

matthew veri cute, nt bad la, oso quite handsome. i cant believe i actually thot

he was malay throughtout half of the amazing race. hah!!

PAISEH!! lol

we grp 13 rox. i still kinda pissed during the candle game, how can grp 12 attack us?

our class guys realli kinda of bastard. lol

i hate: the bloody graduation song. made we cry like siao.

leaving my instructors and BOTTLE TREE PARK. haiy.

afterall, i feel damn motivated by instructer matthew and shamie, thanks! love u both!

SARANG HEYO!~

when anger comes - i hate you

2010-01-17T13:25:00.002+08:00

if u really care about me, stop being a busybody.

i hate you , hate you like hell.

i respect you with my life, but pls respect mine.

how i live my life is my decision.

what im doin now is my decision, not yr decision over yr life.

i love what im doin nw and i will never gib this up.

try stop me if u really can.

if u are going to destroy what i have right now, then u will hab to get through me.

if u cant ,back off.

the most is , u kill me.

i am willing to pay my life for my interest.

you hab never known wad is coled real interest.

ever since u strted quarrelling wif me, you have forgotten and misunderstood me.

i respect u, so i wun shout or scream at you.

u sux.

right in front of me.

2010-01-17T13:11:00.003+08:00

reality showed everything.
the truth and weakness of humanity.
its the courage and honesty tat human lack the most, including me.
if i had those, i'll be a better person for good.

the truth i noe more than half of it. my mind tells me its gone, my brain tells me its not.
hallucination it seemed to be like.
make me crazier and more puzzled over it.
if i could turn back time, i'll make sure i forget everything, especially the best memories i had. cos it brought me pain.
some ppl says tat this pain ain't real pain. it would into sweet memories once you had wad u want.
now thr problem is: its up to me to end this game or not to. im jus stuck, i dunno if i shd choose 'gameover' or 'continue'.

if its 'gameover': i will nid forget everything and return to sad reality.

if its ' continue': i will continue lying to myself and pursue a wanted happiness.

both are liars.

another day of misery~

2010-01-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

mood: empty-
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i could scold a thousand words of vuglarities and nothing will change better.

i dunno whether to laugh, to cry, to smile or wad?
facial expressions arent controlled by me , anymore.

wanting so much to wave, to smile. but my muscles jus got stiff and nothing is done eventually.
i sux- seriously.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

co is as usual, our skills still sux like hell.
juniors trying still, idk if that's their best. cos it realli isnt a gd premonition.

i nid to stricter.
seriously~
i nid to push them hard, otherwise they will fall hard once im gone.

i dun want them to cry as hard as me - becos of the syf silver award.

done. whether they get my real meaning doesnt matter anymore. my onli concern is whether they do their best.

.TROUBLED.

2010-01-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

seriously, these few days r horror.

stress like siao.

tears filled my life as if it is a routine.

i wanna do well, i realli do.

but god made it as if im destined to failo terribly.

do i hab to fight back wad is fated?

tired , veri tired. seriously, i wanna rest.

awkard feeling o_o

2010-01-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

its all fated, i realli do think so.
unable to do what u want is weakness, tats me.
i noe i'll regret ltr but i still doin this.
situation isnt nice, my mind goin bonkers , no one can understand.

all i can do now is take one step at a time.
even if there's a hole in front, i'll eventually step into it , knowing.
even if its realli stupid, im alright wif it.

i wished i hadnt known u, forever.
everything would be completely different. VERI different.
i enjoyed the moments, even if its does hurt.

SNORing dae~

2010-01-05T22:35:00.003+08:00

wah lau, todae damn damn sleepy somehow.
on the way to sch, i dozed off on 985. -_-
during history, mrs tang tok tok tok, i stared at her but i started falLING ASLP!
woah. i woke up in time. hong ping and huaihui totally--->goner sia. lol!

then mr kumar lesson, weeli and me sboth want to slp lor. luckily todae not teaching any stuffa, otherwise die liao lor. sry MR KUMAR!>.<"

go back hm de 985 oso slp. haiy...

oh ya, i saw sean todae at lot. somemore with hongping, jinxiang and vanessa. the 3 of them sia lor,go chase after him to catch a look of him. startled him and them! haha

finally i nid to conclude: I WAN TO SAVE SAVE $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY,
yatyan IS sleepy~~-_-"

last day of holiday!

2010-01-03T14:25:00.002+08:00

lol! last day of holiday, tmr onwards all sec3 gona becum sec4 zombies and strts to study like hell. hope we survive lor.

todae i wan rest at hm the whole day. then slp a lot tonight. then tmr morning can go shc early in the morning to slack. lol!

now: watching new moon online~ yippee~

hello 2010~ :) , byebye 2009

2010-01-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

now: craving for packet milo~

2009 gave me alot of headache here and there. but overall, i enjoy it and i will cherished it too~

->thanks for letting me to noe hongping deeper.love her

->co frens: i made more!~ woots*

->erhu grp: as a sl, i feel veri proud of my own section.haha, all grow up le.mature liao, but some still gib me headache.

->others:1) realise alot of truth and stuffs. gave me hope then it was taken away. maybe its fated , so i wun regret~ gave me courage to clear the air. im glad i did tat.

so , bye bye 2009. its a new me in 2010.

i will work even harder for o-lvls . aftertat i will go out wrk with jessica. we had a promise o ~:)

yatyan ^0^/

LOL~

2009-12-31T12:05:00.002+08:00

This is so stupid~
0_0~
this yr co night - i screwed 3 out of 4 songs.
i sux like hell...
BUT! my sec 1 baobei's got teh best sectional award~ haha. mus be all my credits!~
lol~

camp: with such a noisy co, u will definitely expect screaming and scolding.
night walk is FUN! i love fooling my juniors.lol~ wahahaha
zi yuan damn sui~ haha , serve him right!

conclusion: TIRED AND RESTLESS NIGHT!~

sadded~

2009-12-25T23:31:00.001+08:00

tired, slut and bitches are the 2 words i rmbr.

nth else seems real.
i nid a hug. a big big hug.

LOL sunday. wif mandy

2009-12-13T21:09:00.003+08:00

morning , when hkn for co practice.
new songs cumin up, omg. shyt me pls.
for some songs i think i would jus hab to stare at jason n see how he play.
jason ANTI- me!! HAHA. aiya, i irritate him , coled him white chocolate. i still say he geng nian qi leis!
haha
i feel good doin this!! heheehe

went westmall wif mandy. went TOM and STEFANIE, try some bloody sun glasses. cant find the one i wanted. lol, i NID A BIG GLASSES that cover half of my face!~

then some korean shp , bought studs.

of yah, the arcade. we played the bb machine. crowd gathered near us, see-ing how retarded we are. HEY! we plyed quite well okay?!

lols!! somehow i think we lost our power, the second game was worse than the 1st. haha
1st: 145
2nd: 130+
lolololololol!!!!!

went hungry, empty stomach till i went hm.
lol , i rox. no lah.
im supposed to gain weight during dec holiday, but instead i feel im getting hungry all the time. shyt
scarely when sch reopens, my weight would drop 6 kg!! lol! jus kidding.~

bb, facebk-ING~ bb

yatyan,

no war pls~

^0^/

yesh! 2 days bck from xiamen!

2009-12-03T23:24:00.001+08:00

haha,im back!
finally, miss singapore a lot man!~

i bought a lot of stuffs for friends, juniors and seniors. i end up buying too little stuffs for me n my family members.
haha
nvm.

BYE BYE SG!~

2009-11-23T18:02:00.002+08:00

IM FLYING TMR!!! WOOTS*

can't believe this man.

^0^/

packed everything.

swear im gonna enjoy this trip.

even though im nt 100% free frm my illness.

i'll make it back alive.

this 2 days of packing was crazy, i feel as if i had gone ard the whole globe. ha , jus joking.

tmr im flying, to xiamen. wish nothing goes wrong ther. if ther's any thief, careful. i'm gonna crush yr fingers and break yr bones! ha ha ha ha ha~

bye bye singapore. i'll be back in 8 days time.

i'll miss co, i'll miss my juniors( bet they are slacking~), i'll miss my er hu.

yatyan

missing ya` all.

2 days to flying! ~

2009-11-22T14:14:00.002+08:00

hahah, my blog damn dead kan?

yeah~ i flying in 2 days time. im counting o~

hoho...sharing room wif quan hui, i think i gotta prepare a namelist of ppl i buying souvenirs for.
i think more than 60 ppl leis. shyt
nvm, got qian hui!!

im buyin for all my er hu grp baobeis.
hoho..
family memebers, cousins..etc.

i gotta rmbr to take lots of photographs, otherwise i die of regret. lol

im SOOOOooo excited. but i gotta make sure i get well in 2days!
jyjy!! i'll definitely get well derhs!!

-----next--
todae damn sadded , nv go hkn.
richmond, xiao jing , xiao qi and peixuan goin leis!!
HONG XIU THEY ALL ALSO GOIN leis!!
wah lau!!! i nw damn saddded. shd hab turned down the coaching thing.
-_-"
>0

----next---

i still got lots of stuffs haven buy,
lip blam, moisturising lotion. brain bursting. luggage haven buy leis! die liao. gotta buy by todae!!!
QIONG LAR~

yatyan here,having all kinds of expressions!! woah!

dun THINK too much

2009-11-14T18:07:00.002+08:00

i look at her blog,
wad another she said was true , it was frustrating and irritating i would say.
she dun even noe the true story. let alone the prob n solutions.

afterall, wad is done is already done, sth cant be changed and it definitely won't.
u are nt god.
dun SPEAK oUT loud the prob n expect us to chg as if all is our prob.

i dunno wad to say.
someone said all of us didnt wanna chg our character , thats true . i oso noe that we are worsening stuffs.

since we cant chg stuff, y not try accomodate instead of bringin more trouble?
some stuff i dun noe wad is the right thing to do,
i realli do not.

TIRING dance(SEP)

2009-10-30T11:21:00.000+08:00

BLOODY blood test

2009-10-25T21:53:00.002+08:00

morning went medical checkup @ family doc ther.

(skipped HKN )

tok tok tok...
i thot my sunday would be peaceful.. it ended up tat i nid to extract frm my arm. shyt
i thot it would onli be a pierce on my finger.
it wasnt.

a nightmare indeed.
yea...
doc said my veins was too small, difficult to spot.
he said he TRY luck.

TRY LUCK?!

i was thinking if im goin to die here.. -_-"

i grab my mum hands and didnt dared to take a single look at the doc

jus tel him to kill me, mum.

the pain part was when the needle was inserted and went my blood was sucked.

damn it.

I NEARLY DID those most outrageous thing like screaming: "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh!!!!!!!"

if i did that,

patients outside the rm , in the clinic would be thinking wad happen inside.

i bet they would think tat sb was killed.

lol!

afterall, the pain is still ther.

SLACK-ing DAE~0/

2009-10-18T19:21:00.002+08:00

yo.fellas.

woke up @ 8.30am.( forgot to set alarm yesterday night, overslept.)
shyt. qiong out of bed, then settle everything in 30mins
got to gombak @ 9.30am. finally.

todae's HONGKAH NORTH a bit boring. cos we learn new songs which confuses me.
i kept having the "???" facial expression.
todae lesson got the least ppl man. oso, we got released the lastest, 1st time man: 12.40pm
wow.

...
...
...

now watching hana kimi ep 5
while doin hmt hw.
now is 7.30pm, i can smell dinner frm my room.lol!
prawns!!!!

hahah

tmr goin wif class com to sheng shong to buy family carnival stuff

yea. i nid fresh air. then can shun bian buy lunch for my sis. kk, everything is scheduled!

^0^/

DRAMA -MArathon ^0^./

2009-10-17T15:39:00.002+08:00

ello folks. having drama- marathon .
HANA kIMI - TAIWAN. lame me, but i like rewatching dramas. sounds cool to me though.

gabriel didi* wan chat,paiseh. cant pei u todae.
next time then chat wif u. lol

WATCHING still-ing.
beback tmr.
yea~

yatyan
done 1& a 1/2 hmt hw.lol

DE-STRESS-ing( do nt disturb)

2009-10-17T00:24:00.002+08:00

feeling: stressed
music listening to: LUCkY- ashily

got back so paper.
so-so grade. im satisfied .
except for hmt. sux man. jus pass.
dun mention. sux.

said i'll calm down. cca time- total turned off.
fck again. whr's respect? dun see it at all.
they still dun seemed to understand wad's col respect.
nvm. i noe they will learn it as they grow.

hmt more and more hw. never ending - stressed
i'll solved the stressSSS..lol
one by one. i will!

yatyan
thinking positive always

yy's moral of the day:

stay clam n think. the inner peace is wad u had to have to overcome yr troubles.

K-BOX DAY @ orchard!! woots

2009-10-14T11:47:00.001+08:00

feeling: high
song to describe: TIME IS RUNNING OUT - muse

haha. EXAMS r finally over!
OUTTA MY HEAD!~finally man.
ltr meeting huiyi they all @ bpp. nw @hp hse. using her laptop @ e moment. lol

sadded. i dun think i can sing well todae. cos throat got prob. fck.nvm

bless me! ja`

E MATHS~(>_<)/

2009-10-11T19:44:00.002+08:00

MOOD: restless
waiting for: MY dinner( crab)

im hungry. gotta admit. u can force hungry me into doin hw for 3 hrs and after tat 3 hrs, u will see i done nothing. ha!
cant concentrate nw. shyt.
hungry.
hungry!

im doin e maths assessment. lol, it is easy but long-stepped!
i pray tat tmr de emaths paper be a mid -difficulty de. then for chemistry, i noe ms vanessa confirm gib confusing n crazy questions, so jus bless me man.

for goodness sake, im 15 yrs old onli. i dun wanna die so young, somemore becos of a heartless eoy chem paper. haha. im thinking too far le. i will NOT die de.

haha
DINNE'S HERE!!
bb

bless me tmr ppl!
u all jyjy also!

yatyan here

wacthing tv ltr

haha!

PERSERVER-ing .

2009-10-11T01:08:00.002+08:00

my blog dead. gonnabe dead for 3 more days.
haha

ppl, jiayous.
motto: never fear to fail, onli fear when u r dying

yatyan here
knowing my health is failing me.

Its mY LIFE. NOT yrs.

2009-09-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

feeling: tired and unhappy

still troubled over fri co. i guess my performance wasnt at all gd. if its syf, i'll get COP.
sad to say, im sec 3 ER HU'S sl. this is my f-cking performance. this realli sux la.
gotta buck up like hell.

i tried to rush and complete ms lye overdued hw. but..haiy

now, goin 12. ltr then tel lao da happi birthday.see if i rmbr. hahaha!

yatyan
tired of ppl controlling my life
suckers , getaway

PHYSICS!! BLING bling*

2009-09-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

ha. todae wore new watch sis bought me. BLING BLING*
somemore it has different lights shining when i press the button. so childish. suits me! hahah

todae i dk wads goin on during lesson, except tat i felt extremely sleepy. snore* snore*
nw qiongin physics.i mean after i blog.
thurs got history test. wtwtwt. i dun understand the chap @ all la. shyt
nvm. all the best for me!

bb
BLING bling*
may tmr cca be peaceful and fun~

hehe...WATCHING idols!!lol

2009-09-21T16:56:00.006+08:00

todae i veri guai worhs. qiong a lot of hw. i think got 4-5. lol
coled yamada sensei in the morning and afternoon.lol long chat.

do hw..do hw...

eat lunch. sis's spaghetti not realli nice. a bit tasteless. ha!
me and my sis laughed out loud when mum repeated sth (nagged abt pa)
the funny part i forget le. but the joke drove me n my sis crazy ...for like 20 mins , we continue laughing tat we did nt even touch the food.
mom jus continued the joke. stomach hurts, laugh too much le.

watching my fav idol HYUN JOONG : WE GOT MARRIED - wif hwangbo.
both of them veri compatible. cos so damn fiunny la.
oso get to see ss501 faces. cute and sexy man!
haha

this is jus a random ep of WGM.

ltr goin westmall wif mom, then buy new shoes.(sch shoes)
shd i buy converse or all star american? haiy
nvm, ltr then see
snore//snore
bb

p.s: i still got my hmt test nid to memorise.lol O_0"

PHYSICS ~ woo...i dun understand @ all

2009-09-21T12:38:00.002+08:00

Transfer of Thermal Energy

Uploaded by sharanya on WiZiQ Tutorials

watch this. found this but a bit too cheem for myself. lol!

SO complicating man.

2009-09-20T19:48:00.004+08:00

song of the dae: FRIEND
artist: Kaitlyn

todae morning sux...jus had a great dream but got woken up by my mom. thks la!
lol
morning chat wif justin.t on msn. random toking.
conclusion of chat: i can relax and throw my hui jing baobei to him le~ woots* happy for both.hehe

watch a lot of videos todae.
did a few hw onli.im slacking again.
i mus at least complete my hmt hw and maths( E & A) by tmr. oh ya...plus el narative writing. nearly forgot.
during the chat wif j.t, realise i've been biased.
reali...im biased towards some ppl
i shd open up myself a bit and learn to let others in.
i'll try but if it strts goin over my limit, im goin to stop and put an end to it.
Everyone gotta learn to fall in relationships.
im an expert at mental relationship and gd listener, but those qns for ppl arent for me.
one day, i'll be holding a cup of my fav tea and living happily ever after.

(thnking too much ...TOTALLY~)

im off to facebook , bye ppl:)

yatyan, thinking of mocha chocolate cake.lol

ha! boring!~

2009-09-19T19:04:00.004+08:00

hello ppl. todae's 19th

yea!

yesterday co meeting is like. wt.lol

made me think a lot.

nvm. i gotta be brave. im sl leis

ha!

afterall, todae i jus took a test or sth. they said my FLOWER: GLADIOLA!

DAMN nice and beautiful kan. hahaha!!! im so proud~

doing hw in the morning and afternoon.

nw watching videos online.haha!

tats all dudes

goin off.bb

16sep->tired and painful day~!

2009-09-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

yo ppl.
my shoulder(left) is still in pain. i think it had worsen. shyt la.
i think i use too much energy to play er hu. stupid me.
i think i shouldnt strain on my left shoulder le.

song listening nw: i'll be ( cinderella story)
mood: nth @ all

jus finished my history. took ages to complete it. thanks god~ phew

reaching towards to my bed in 15 mins. gotta slp well for tmr. i duno wanna fall aslp in class tmr. Snorez*!

yatyan
ending my
so-shrt speech

omg. hISTORY. NOooooo~>0
2009-09-15T21:56:00.003+08:00
FEELING: okok. -0-/
PROBlem FACING NW: left shoulder still ach-ING.
think i practise erhu too much le.
damn pain kan. maybe i shdnt practise too frequently.

ACHING....omg.damn pain.
now, doin history essay.
ask a lot of ppl how to do.
none knew how.
i guess i gotta rely myself.
stupid qn.
i think my brain juice used up. brain cant even function nw la.
wtwt
jyjy, yatyan..u can do it derhs!!
shoulder ach-ing is SMALL stuff.
PERSERVERE~~
tmr got cca, wish juniors buck up n stop letting us having to worry abt them
lol.i sound like ah ma liao
some juniors i nid patience to deal wif.
gotta stay strong realli.
hoho
tats all.gotta qiong history liao
bb ppl
yatyan here. struggling wif my shoulder.
lol!
>0

lol. HW n still HOMEWORK! omg...

2009-09-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

shyt shyt... hw stacking up.
i had a few overdue hw. nvm, tmr go sch complete.
my left shoulder hurts a lot.
i think practise erhu too long n too much le.
i think i gotta rest, otherwise my shoulder one day dislocate arhs..
haha~

nw, doin history research abit.
tmr then complete it.thoroughly, i promised myself.
bb.
watching missed BOF.
sadded
ja`

p.s: yongyao baober nv cum todae. my n hp having "yongyao" mon blues. ha!
nvm, he cumin back tmr..woots* bu kuei shi wo de baober!

yatyan0_o:
shoudler ach-ing *

0_o: its like... RAindrops keep fall'in on my head~

2009-09-10T20:36:00.001+08:00

music: masuri(co song)

oh~ pitter patter,pitter patter.
u BLOODY rain.
soak me from top to bottom.
ass lar~
lol
qiong to sch for maths supp, rain so damn heavily.
im wet, totally.

e maths supp- circles & still CIRCLES~
i think cicrles is actually veri easy, jus tat my brain n eyes doesnt cordinate well.lol
racking brain. head spliting.

go hm:
bought mac on the way.
watch tv while eating
did hw- circles 2.
lol, late wrk.im slacking .omg~ i shdnt be lar
ss501 cumin sg before dec.i shd strt emergency saving nw on.lol
tmr still got cca. somemore got ipw presetation .omg. bless me ppl.
i gotta speak louder.
lol

yatyan,
writing my scripts

rainy days- raindrops' nt falling on my head~-_-

2009-09-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

yo, ppl. its me again.everything is still as crazy as ever.
I GUESSED IM IN LOVED WIF samuel's hp song: addicted i mus say: ENDLESS STORY by yuna ito!!~
damn nice, mus listen! rated 4 stars by me!

31th sep : played dumb true or dare.i miss the part when junhong got piggy backed' by jenifer!ha!
junhong cute x3!!!

after sch went to lot control station find wangxin.
then take mrt to bukitbatok station then took bus to btps
ha.
he dun hab 青春liao!!haha
nvm.he kept being suan* by me.
go back btps. sux la.onli get to see mr effandi's back.thanks a lot lor.stupid sch
i earned a free lunch from wangxin - swensen

yippe...

kk
1st sep:
rain...RAIN...still RAINING.
weather damn cold la. im like living in north pole. if ther were free show of penguins or polar bears, i wouldnt mind.
but prob is there isnt.
did e maths circle 1.
i sux la
i start to slack liao.
tmr then do circle 2.
tmr got cCA also, sec 2 juniors better be mentally n physically prepared.
lol

at night complete ipw model design thks to minyu/
chat wif minyu n jiade father for a while.
now blogging.
FACEBOOK: im WORTH 30+ MIL.omg!
within a week i've been loved! haha!jking
im being loved! im blessed. eternal luck- its a miracle.

lastly,
im still going to work hard cos im gona prove those assholes hu think im lazy tat im nt.
u bloody suckers. watch out.
p.s: JUNIORS! sl got practise erhu daily de worhs! u all mus be more motivated marhs!~lol
jyjy !
bb
yatyan , backache.